Road to Mercy: Bone Weary

Below is part of my devotional from Monday. This devotional has one reading for each day of the year. It always amazes me how well they correlate to just what I need on that day. It’s crazy how much this one matched up to my day… really my week.

Jesus said, “Come to me for rest and refreshment. The journey has been too much for you and you are bone-weary. Do not be ashamed of your exhaustion. Instead, see it as an opportunity for Me to take charge of your life.

Remember that I can fit everything into a pattern for good, including the things you wish were different. Start with where you are at this point in time and space, accepting that this is where I intend you to be. You will get through today one step, one moment at a time. Your main responsibility is to remain attentive to Me, letting Me guide you through the many choices along your pathway.

This sounds like an easy assignment, but it is not. Your desire to live in My presence goes against the grain of “the world, the flesh, and the devil.” Much of your weariness results from your constant battle against these opponents. However, you are on the path of my choosing, so do not give up! Hope in Me, for you again praise Me for the help of My presence.” -- From "Jesus Calling"

The Lord knows that I am “bone-weary” and I can be ashamed of my emotions and exhaustion. Monday morning everything sort of hit me. I was scared, worried, tired, angry, frustrated… you name it. I was done operating in any bit of my own power. I had nothing left. But I am so grateful that He has renewed by spirit a bit. I am taking each day one step at a time. Monday, He put great friends in my path to encourage me and make me smile and a great husband who knew just what to say. I had a mini-miracle in obtaining one piece of paper. And God reminded me that He is in control. But this fight is not over. We have more hard days ahead. I am glad we don’t have to fight alone. I arrived in Uganda 24 weeks ago today thinking that I would be in and out of the country within 6 weeks. Oh, how naive I was, but oh, how many thingsI have learned in this time, and oh, how Mercy has grown and advanced. You almost wouldn't know it was the same child. Lord, I am not giving up , but instead hoping in You.